I just found out some stuff recently and its frustrating because now I have a lot of "what if" questions...like if I did this earlier would the outcome be different, or if I did that, would it be different. And its kind of hard because thats all I keep asking myself, but its like my one friend said, "its not about the what ifs, its about the what now." I think she's right, what now?? What do I do now? I guess I just gotta let it go and let it be. I can't really change what's happening, I just gotta sit back and let shit run its course. But thats usually the hardest thing to do, just letting it happen, not being in control. Thats the hardest thing for me, maybe because I am stubborn, but I don't know. A good friend told me, "Ask, Believe & Receive." But I don't know what to ask for because I don't want to be selfish and shit, so I guess I'm kind of at a crossroads and I don't know which road to take. I think either way I go is going to suck. This whole situation sucks. And yesterday, I was told 3 different times by 3 different people its, "you reap what you sow," that just makes me think. I just got to start living my life right and making the right choices. Damn, I hate feeling like this!! AHHHH!!! Ok, thats enough for today...have a good hump day. Peace!